The sun is rising over Harris Creek on this still and silent Sunday morning in November. Sundays are for sermonizing. As long as I am a member I am not whole. The member is always and only a part in the whole, never the whole itself. To identify myself with a part is to experience lack, to be always and only becoming whole, always and only incomplete, searching for the missing part that would make me whole. There is no experince of wholeness within that whole body that is "greater than the sum of its parts" because it is not whole, not fully evolved, until the end of time, until the conceptual process ceases. The body is whole when it stops dividing itself into groups.

Death is not a return to the conceptual womb, death is not sleep. Death is the end of the conceptual process itself and in that ending the body is whole. The only path to wholeness is through dying. It is our own wholeness that simultaneously attracts and repels us. We can't experience wholeness until we cease to identify ourselves with a part, but it is precisely this identity to which we cling, because we desire it.

Wholeness cannot be made through any technique whatsoever. Technology is a conceptual process; so is biology. The conceptual process is, ipso facto, divisive; divisive, and reproductive of a whole divided into parts. The purpose of the players is to keep the show on the road and the purpose of the tellers and listeners, writers and readers, is to keep the story from dissolving. The purpose is to hold wholeness at bay; it is a resistance movement.

Enantiadromia, or, a sex-change operation: He becomes her as she becomes him. Or, the child becomes the adult as the adult becomes the child. Where in the world does the idea of progress come from? There is no adult apart from a child, no him apart from her. There is no original parent, absent the original child. Here then is the "great lie" called history.

I am a child and an adult, a man and a woman. How can I be castrated if I am bi-sexual? How can I develop if I am developed at conception? To replace "and" with "or" is to insert a space of time into the relationship between the metaphors. Am I a man or a mouse?

The relationship between metaphors is ambiguous; neither word represents the other. Methaphors present a likeness, a similarity, an analogy, but never a distinction. To make a distinction requires a concept. The conceptual process is a digital process which translates words as numbers; the metaphorical relationship is overcoded bythe numerical relationship ( -1 0 +1 ). It is the conceptual process that translates imagination as fantasy. The becoming is in the concepts.