Why is it that the event that cannot happen is simultaneously the telos of desire and the greatest fear? “I never could accept the first step of the Genesis story: ‘In the beginning the earth was without form and void.’ That primary tabula rasa would have set a formidable problem in thermodynamics for the next billion years. Perhaps the earth never was any more a tabula rasa than is, a human zygote --- a fertilized egg.” Gregory Bateson, Mind And Nature. 5. Atonement is a conceptual impossibility; two is the minimum. If the egg is not fertile there is no egg. So why then “Holy Dread”?

Desire is ambivalent; systematic structure is asymmetrical. The elimination of the ambivalence is the elimination of desire--- equilibrium---the elimination of structure. It’s always and only attraction/repulsion, always and only genital, or, bi-sexual. It’s not Nirvana or Karmic Wheel, but a double helix. The dream is a fertile egg and waking is a tethered eye.